Training and Conditioning

After a busy weekend i wasn't sure what to write really, so Master thought he'd give me a reminder... smiles. This morning, Master had me go to the washroom and rub to within a breath of cumming then come back to him. Then i was to do the same an hour later. That of course kept me on edge pretty much the rest of the day. When he came on tonight, had me rub again close to orgasm and again denied me, but kept me on the edge longer this time. Finally he had me rub fast and light then to get ahold of my clit and jerk it fast, was sooo very hard to keep from cumming, but without permission, my body just won't cum. my Master sat and talked to me for a few minutes, then suddenly held up his fingers and snapped them and ordered me to cum. my body reacted without hesitation and began cumming. Master reminded me of the training and conditioning i have been taught.
In the beginning i had a really hard time holding back my orgasms and slipped a few times, though back then it was okay, i would be punished, but not too severely. Now is a whole other story, i don't want to even think of the punishment for that. my training started slow with my Master having me rub till i felt the orgasm building, then push a little further each time, pushing the edge further away. Then Master would have me rub just to the edge and make me stop and not move, if i moved, i would orgasm without having to touch myself anymore. Then as time went on, Master taught me to respond to the snap of his fingers. He would have me rubbing and on the edge of an orgasm, then snap his fingers and give permission for me to cum and cum i would! After a time, Master could have me rub, then snap his fingers and i would cum on demand. Master conditioned me to cum on demand, his command, or the snap of his fingers.
Master has also conditioned me in other ways, those being that i have been conditioned to be at a steady 7 (the level of wetness at which a cunt is ready for use), my mouth watering when he says, my nipples and clit tingling when he says and even crying on demand for him.
There are no two ways about it, my body belongs to him and obeys him. It does as he pleases when he pleases, how he pleases and for how long he pleases. It used to scare me a little when it would happen, my body out of control, yet it wasn't, it was very much in control, just not mine! Master is getting me back on track and in that he is revisiting the training and conditioning he has already done. For many reasons, things have slowed my progress, and at times its very hard for me to focus and get back to where i was. my greatest fear is that my body will not respond or will not listen, but Master says that's just silly because it doesn't listen to me, it listens to him... smiles, and he is right, it does. That isn't to say that once the wand "re-training" comes in i won't be worried. When things were going well, Master would have me moving the wand over my clit, keeping me on the edge and not letting me cum for close to about 40 min i think. That is a really really long time, trust me, for those of you who care to try, i'd love to hear from you...lol
i know that my body responds to him, i know it's silly of me to think otherwise, but i can't help but worry. As Master tells me often, it's his responsibility and to just butt out!
So onwards and upwards we go, i'm sure i'll be writing about it more in the future... grins