A little more cam fun...

This morning i log onto my phone and my Master messages me to say good morning. i reply with a good morning and description of what i am wearing today, pants, blouse, cardigan, socks, tall boots, hair pulled back and make up. Then my Master says let me know when you are at work. So i finish getting ready and send my son off to school, drive into work, get things gathered, then sit at my desk, log in and tell my Master i am at work. He asks how i am feeling today, and i'm feeling pretty good except my stomach is a bit uneasy for some reason, but otherwise fine. He then instructs me to go back on the cam site and my goal is to get 100 viewers doing whatever i can to entice them. i think OMG, how can i do that? i'm at work and am limited to what i can do... yes Master is my reply and i obediently get my cam set up and log in. My nerves are in over drive but i take a deep breath and just do it!
i unbutton my blouse so that it is open to just under my bra and begin watching the numbers climb slowly then recede, i type a little and talk to the few in the room, then i unbutton my blouse one more button and expose my bra covered chest to the cam... instant spike...lol i am up to now about 50 viewers. The comments start flying about how beautiful my breasts are and how big they are, i just laugh, because they aren't big at all, they are basically a C-, but the bra definitely helps. i watch the numbers going up and down and report in to my Master, and he says, you have to hit 100. So i pop a nipple out of the bra and start rolling it and playing with it. Within second, my viewers are now nearing 90 i'm almost there!! The comments coming in are all good comments, no idiots in the crowd today, but of course, you give a little, they want it all. They are asking to see my bottom and cunt, asking if i wear panties, to which i simply reply no panties for this girl, wow does that get them into a frenzy...lol
i stand and turn to let them see my bottom in my pants and again the comments start flying, i have to say though, i do love my bottom, i always have, its nice and round, a little large, but proportionate and not rock hard, but not droopy either...lol, one of my best assets i would have to say... pardon the pun...grins. After showing my bottom, clothed, now they want me to show them that i don't have panties on, by this time, i've gotten into it and don't really care, and am not really noticing the numbers so much either. So i stand up and undo the front of my pants and flash bare flesh where you would normally see the fabric of panties. Again, another feeding frenzy! They start asking if i shave or if i'm hairy, i reply, waxed clean... and yep, you guessed it, off they go again. i had to actually laugh at them. These men all hot and bothered ready to fuck anything are sitting there, some jerking off, others wanting to, watching me fully clothed. i peek up at the viewers and it is rapidly climbing from the 90's to just over 150!
Wow, i was shocked, so i continued playing with my nipples and breasts, then gathered named for MSN to play with when i am not at work. i have to admit, while at the beginning i was nervous, in the end i felt really good, and hmmm, sort of empowered, knowing that i could get most likely at least 100 out of those 150 men to fuck me if i wanted.
i reported back to my Master that it hit 150 viewers and he was very pleased to say the least. On his way home he had me masturbate thinking of those men standing in line waiting to fuck me, he would have each and every one of them either cum in or on me, one by one, the cum dripping off me, down my legs, completely covered in it, i was rubbing so fast and begged to cum, when he let me, i came very very hard, began to zone out actually, which is dangerous here at work, since someone came pretty close to catching me and i didn't notice them...lol After cumming several times for my Master, we began to discuss the point behind this little exercise he gives me.
Basically in a nut shell, various things in my past have caused me to have an extremely low self image. For the last 3 1/2 yrs, my Master has been working very hard to help me see that i am beautiful, desirable and fuckable. And yes, i have come a long way from when we first met, but in my head, i still think, of course my Master thinks i'm all that, he loves me, but other guys don't. And even with this cam training, i sit and hold my breath waiting for the nasty comments to fly. i'm not a model, i have given birth, gained and lost lots of weight, my body shows these things and i have to come to terms with it. It is who i am.....
my Master asked me, if it were a friend telling me about showing herself on cam with 150 viewers and one idiot made a nasty remark, what would i tell them. Of course, i would tell them, ignore them, its 1 out of 150. His comments mean nothing, he's an idiot, a stupid, weak, pathetic little man, sitting in a room all by him self, wanking to anything he can find. And in reality i "know" this in my mind, but its to get it to my heart is the problem.
When they are watching me, like there were today, and giving me such wonderful comments, i hear that nagging voice say, "well they wouldn't be saying that if they saw you naked"... or something of that effect.
In the end, i do have to admit i think i feel a bit of guilt, well, not sure guilt, but... my Master loves me for who i am and what i look like, why is it so important to me to get approval or reassurance from other men? Why do i need this confirmation? And will it ever be enough?
Well i'm off to finish up my work day, but not before my Master instructed me to put my lock on and stay locked until further notice.